2/3 - Epi 200 ... I Hate you ... Because You have the Power to Hurt Me

2nd Mar Fri

My title after the first half of the episode was going to be Unravelling ... the DVD coming to Mami, Anjali and Nani figuring out what really happened at the pag phera ... and Anjali realizing more and more that Arnav and Khushi are both hiding something from the family.

And then ArHi happened ... :) :) :)

I love, love, love ArHi confrontations ... these two actors just take them to a different level completely ... :">

Mandir scene - one more rite of marriage - Arnav acknowledges Khushi as his wife publicly in Devi Maiyya's mandir - the wedding carried out in the dead of night with no witnesses, now is approved and sanctioned in the same mandir in front of Devi Maiyya herself and a hundred other people ... and Khushi's bidaai takes place from her divine mother's house as Arnav declares her to be his wife, and carries her out in front of the world.Again loved the expression in Khushi's eyes as he carries her out ... again searching, searching ... looking desperately for answers ... she can't hide her despair, her hope, her sadness ... what was happening between them, and what happened ... why?!

Payash ... am liking Akash more and more - he reassures Babuji that Khushi will be accepted by his family, he will take care. Didn't like Buaji returning Khushi's shagun :( Forgave Garima slightly for giving Khushi her pag phera shagun ... although she said she would never forgive her - Garimaji, you will have to eat your words some time.

Arnav Khushi enter the house with another small spat - again Arnav reminds Khushi he doesn't want to upset Di, Khushi refusing to hold his hand ... you go girl!!! ... but gives in because she doesn't want to upset Anjali either ... and she covers for him again to Anjali ... yes, everything was all right ...

Arnav was scared as to what Khushi would say ... would she give him away, would she say anything to Anjali ... but no, she covered for him ... as usual ...and Anjali was relieved ... for the moment.
Arnav wants to talk to Khushi in their room ... call me foolish, but I went hayyeeee at that one :"> ... keeping their fights very private as always ... Manodrama's snide remark about "private talks" :)

Again loved the way Khushi closed the door so firmly ... okay, we're alone, now talk ... and I want answers ...
And again their confrontation, heated, fiery, fierce back and forth ... until she tells him ... do you even know how much you hurt me ... and he comes right back with ... and how about how much you hurt me???!!!
And Khushi goes silent ... utterly and completely baffled, shell-shocked ... what does he mean??? She???!!! ... hurt him???!!! ... when ... how ... what did she do ...???

But even revealing that much was tough for him ... he can't reveal his own vulnerability, his huge insecurity, the enormous hurt, the anguish he went through when he saw her with Shyam ... he falls silent ...
No, Khushi is not having that ... she physically blocks his way ... tiny fierce little tigress ... not this time, you don't run away ... what did I do??? How did I hurt you ... you have to tell me ...

Did I mention that I LOVE these fierce ArHi confrontations???!!! And simply loved Khushi's fearlessness ... and Arnav's passion ... both actors were fabulous!!! 

*sigh* ... Anjali, can you stop disturbing a newlywed couple - he said he wanted to talk to his wife in private ... do you not understand what that means??? Okay, Payash told you that Khushi is not yet forgiven by her family, that she and Arnav were lying ... but seriously, do you have to investigate right away???!!!

And Arnav runs away ... as usual ... from his feelings, from his wife's questions ... from facing his fears ...
Anjali questions Khushi ... Khushi admits that yes, everyone is angry with her, everyone hates her ... her parents, Payal, even Anjali ... Anjali corrects her, no, we don't hate you, but we're hurt at what you and Chotey did ... why you did it this way ...
What is Khushi to reply ... when she doesn't have the answers herself? And for once, she runs away as well ...

The CU made me change the title of this post :)) ... I changed it again to the main theme ... :)

Khushi is disturbed ... very disturbed ... and she's making jalebis =D> I was waiting for that one!!!
And as she fires, she thinks ... first her frustration and anger ... what do I reply to everyone, when I don't know the answers myself ... and the one who has the answers, won't give them ...
And then the moment we were all waiting for ... =D> bitiya ke dimaag ki batti jai ... that trip to her DM's temple was fruitful in more ways than one ...
How did I hurt him ... what did I do ...
Could he have found out about Shyamji and ...

Dia juming up and down in joy ... bitiya ki batti jali!!! :)) <:-P
Note of caution ... for Chrissake, don't go to ask RS about this ... go directly to Arnav ...
SN - what happened about the 2 hour challenge?

*edited - finally!!!* Blame two rounds of unsuccessful download attempts for the delay :(

Have incorporated some symbolic interpretations from Sathya's post for the first scene, which I found very apt ...
Arnav sees Khushi, Khushi sees Arnav ... in the mandir of the goddess whom he doesn't believe in, and she has forsworn very recently,  ... but still her footsteps automatically took her there when she was thrown out of her own maayka, with her pag phera rasam incomplete ... and he followed when the bell struck - this was the only place she could be ...
She entered the temple to find a refuge because she thought she had nowhere else to go ... she didn't want to attend the aarti, to pray, because she felt her friend had left her side, she was sulking, she had no intention of re-approaching her ... he of course, never entered with the intent of going anywhere near DM ... he entered the temple only to find his Khushi.
And in their game of hide and seek, both went closer and closer to the Mother ... till they were standing at her feet ... and DM had the last laugh ... you said you would not come to me, and yet here you are, both of you ...
 - never again, Arnav, make the claim that you write your destiny, because DM just showed you very comprehensively that you don't ...
 - and never again, Khushi, tell your Mother that you won't talk to her because she left your side, because she didn't, and she's just about to prove it to you ...

So Arnav calls out furiously to Khushi, what are you trying to do, come home with me right now ... she tries to ignore him, and he loses it and shouts ... creating pin-drop silence all round ... oops, did he just do that? Shout out to his wife in the middle of a temple ... all eyes on him ... on them ... Well, he can never stand it if she ignores him ...
What the hell do you think you're doing?!
One brave bystander interjects, Arnav tells him that it's their personal matter, butt out!

And that's enough to raise her temper ...
Don't talk to me like that in front of everyone! And what are you even doing here?
He's mad, he just went nuts looking for her all over town, and as usual she's hale and hearty, and fighting fit ... how many times does this make it that she disappeared on him and didn't answer his calls, worried him to pieces and then reappeared without a scratch?
Stop this drama and go sit in the car!
No, I won't!  I'm not going anywhere with you ... I'm mad and upset, and you'd better know it ... wifespeak again ... :))
Hubby loses his temper ... oh, he never found it since it went missing ... Khushi, listen to me or else ...
Or else what?! What will you do? Pick me up and carry me out?!
That was a direct challenge, and ODB never turns down a direct challenge, especially not from ODG.
Khushi, I can do that too ... and you know it ... 
Oh yes, she does, maybe subconsciously that's why she issued it ... ;) ... and hang on, did he just acknowledge that she knows him well enough ...
You can't ...
Khushi, I'm warning you  ... don't push my buttons ... now when did she ever not do that? So he grabs her hand as the first step, and she fights him off ... but of course ...
Leave me ...
Innocent bystander decides to risk his neck again ... don't manhandle the girl, that's not nice ...

Pat comes the answer, without even thinking about it ... You stop interfering, this is my wife and I'm taking her home with me ... you have a problem with that? Anybody want to try stopping me?
Khushi stops struggling and stares ... DM gives a big satisfied chuckle ... =)) Mission accomplished.

Barely two nights ago (in IPK Narnia land) he married her in the middle of the night, DM their only witness, and told her he would never acknowledge her status or her rights as his wife ... today, in front of a multitude of witnesses he did both ... she belongs to me, and I'm taking her home. 
She came to DM's mandir feeling completely lost ... homeless and alone ... she leaves with her husband, going to their home, acknowledged in the eyes of the world as his lawful wedded wife ...

And just in case she thought he forgot her challenge, he picks her up in his arms and walks down the temple steps with her ... her bidaai from her mother's house, and her grihapravesh into her husband's ... the car is almost their home, seeing the number of very private ArHi moments it has seen ...
And Khushi stares at him as he walks ... her eyes filling, all fight gone ... she is his wife, she belongs to him ... she finally belongs, she has a place of her own ...
But under what circumstances ... where they were and where they are now, so much has happened, and she doesn't even understand the reasons why ...
Loved the look he gave her as he picked her up ... I can do this, you are mine ... I have the right ...
And hers as he walked ... yes, you have, I never denied that ... but why this way ... does it have to be this way?

And the pause at the end of the steps ... she wipes her tears, still questioning him with her eyes, then looking down and holding him again ... I wanted this always, but why this way ...?
You are mine, that's all that matters ...

We wanted him to carry her over the threshold - at latest count, he's carried her over the threshold of his house, his room, from her divine maayka into his car ...

Khushi recovers her fight in the car, Arnav has had enough ... stop the drama, you know I don't like it.
Again - you know ... again acknowledging that he knows she knows him ... knows a lot about him ... she's his wife, after all ...
And he should know her well enough to know that shutting her up isn't so easy ...
Yeah? What about the drama you did in carrying me out in front of everyone ...?
He finally shuts her up ... don't say another word till we reach home now ... Mulishly, sulking, she complies ...
And wear your seatbelt ... hubby talk again ... wifey now on silent treatment ... slowly, slowly crawling back to their old equation of fighting, squabbling, sulking ... the familiarity, the sense of belonging ...

In between was Payash - Akash assures Babuji that R's will accept Khushi, he knows Babuji is most concerned about her ... the shaadi ka DVD appears ... and Garima gives a shagun for Khushi after all.


Back home at RM, Arnav waits impatiently for a still sulking Khushi at the front door ...
What?! You want to carry me over the threshold again now?
His eyes said he wouldn't mind ... but he just reached for her hand instead ... but Khushi still sulking, withdraws it silently ... nope, you don't hold my hand just like that, buster ... 
Of course he's not going to like that, so he grabs it anyway ... of course she fights him off ... till he explains ...hold my hand, I want Di to think everything went off well at your house, otherwise she'll get worried ...
She stops struggling, but still fires back ... so you want me to lie?
He shoots a salvo back which confuses her again, enough to keep her quiet as he rings the bell and stands hand in hand ... shouldn't be difficult for you, it's a habit ... 
And as she stands baffled, he gets breathing space ...

Mami's two oneliners ... Arnav bitwa and exstra bahurani ...
guttrar goon ... love birds ...

Anjali starts to cross question Khushi about her visit home ... Arnav tense, not happy at Mami's taunts, ready to step in at Anjali's questions ... but Khushi does the needful ... it went off fine, Anjaliji ...
Not convinced, Anjali is ready to ask more ... Arnav steps in to save her from further grilling.
Khushi, come upstairs, I need to talk to you ...
(hayeee ... Sadda HAQ ... :">  Methinks Arnav bitwa is very soon going to appreciate this marriage business if it means he can speak to Khushi in private at any time, whenever he wants, without sundry family members wondering or questioning ... and always assuming tigress wifey permits him to get away with such behaviour, of course :) )

Anjali still doleful ... well, at least the rasam got done, ... even if I still don't know what's going on ...

Khushi has gotten into the wife act very fast - enter room, shut door firmly ... this is MY room, OUR room ... now talk, Mr. Raizada ... I'm listening ... can't promise that for too long ...
And the Arhi confrntation  ... :"> :"> :">
His first gripe, and major one - answer the phone when I call you ... and don't disappear on me again ... I won't come crazily looking for you every time ...
Like I just did ... the last few times ...
Told you she wouldn't listen quietly for too long ... some do's and don'ts from her side fired right back ...
And you don't hold my hand like that, and don't shout at me in front of everyone like that ... and oh yes, I didn't take your call because I didn't want to  ... savvy? I didn't want to talk to you, I didn't want to come back here with you ...

In the meantime, Payash return home, and tell Anjali and Nani what really happened at GH with Khushi ... Payal won a few more Brownie points by showing her relief that Khushi was back home safely ...

Back to ArHi ... Arnav gets his turn to talk ... 'What you want doesn't matter ... I want that our family doesn't get to know the truth, so we will play this drama out ...'
'Why?! Why should we?! Why should things happen always the way you want? Me, me, me ... always about you and what you want ... have you ever thought about what I want? What I feel? How much what you say, what you do hurts me ...'
What she wants? What she feels? That's what's been eating him up all along ... that's what's been tormenting him for so many days ...
'And what about the hurt you gave me?!!!'

And it's out ... finally ... out in the open between them ... he was hurt ... deeply, painfully, piercingly hurt ... by her ...
And Khushi stops in her tracks ... shocked ... stunned speechless ... as he stares at her, gripping her tightly but neither of them even notice that ... as they stare at each other, at the truth flaming between them ...
You have the power to hurt me like nobody else can ... you hurt me, dammit ...

A soft, breathy 'kya ...' barely audible through her shock ... what did I do?!!!
And the sound recalls him to his senses, what he just almost admitted ... again he was unmasked, vulnerable and exposed in front of her ... he leaves her and moves away as quickly as he can, not meeting her eyes ... was it the first time he admitted it to himself as well? That everything he did with Khushi was not because she could have hurt his Di ... it was because she hurt him ...

Khushi struggling, desperately trying to make sense of this shattering new disclosure ... what did I do that hurt you so much?! 

What is he to answer? You broke my heart? You loved another man? No, he's not ready to confess his love yet ... not by a long way ... silence again his only defence.
But she's not letting up ... when did I hurt you? What was it I did that ... Tell me!!!
He can't ... he has to leave right away ... but she stops him, arms outstretched ... no, you don't! Not till you tell me ... you don't leave this way ... not till you tell me what you're accusing me of ... 

Saved by the bell ... or the knock ... Anjali, the ever-loving, ever-interfering ever-present Di ... and Arnav gets his reprieve ...

Why did Anjali have to come right now? After Arnav said very clearly he wanted to talk to his wife alone? x(
*shiddat alert* - I want a scene where Anjali comes interfering, Arnav tells her to get lost because he's having a private conversation with his wife ... and shuts the door in her face ... if she does this when they're making out, it will be even better ... :))

Anjali tells Khushi mournfully that she knows what happened at GH, of course Khushi is upset ... really, Anjali? And you're here to do what exactly? Rub it in? And add that even you are upset, as upset as Khushi's parents and sister ... because Khushi and Arnav made a mistake and won't tell anyone why ...
Not quite sure what Anjali accomplished except to be KMH and upset Khushi further ...

Anjali's holier-than-thou attitude, her need to know everything and her conviction that she can fix everything better than anyone else, is starting to get to me ... as is her dependence and her fixation with her Chotey's life ...

So Jalebi Bai emerges after a long, long gap ... Khushi put up with all the taunts, the insults, the heartbreak ... but what her going was the fact that somehow, she doesn't know how, when or where ... she hurt Arnav ...
Or does she ... ? The only secret she is hiding from him ... could it be that?

Ghanti baji ... batti jalli ... she may not arrive at the right conclusion immediately ... but she's on the right track ... and once Khushi is on the right track, and DM has given the green signal ... it's all systems go ...