Fri 30/3 -220 ... Small Heart Big Ego vs Big Heart Small Ego

March 30th Fri

Bholi surat dil ke khote
Naam bade aur darshan chote, darshan chote ...

Today Arnav reminded me of this song ... his ego is far bigger than his love. And Khushi is all heart, no place for ego. She needs it all to be able to love this man ... he comes across as singularly unloveable at times!

Didn't care for the public uthak baithak he made her do ... x(
Didn't care for the very ungraceful way he agreed to drink the kadha ... for Di again!!! Di ka bhakt!!!
The teasing look when he made her clean her room was okay ... but not seeing even slightly her genuine repentance about making him lose his voice, or feeling even the slightest bit bad about teasing her that way, was not. x(
And the last line of his I did not like at all. Is your ego so big that you can't admit even once to being wrong in front of your wife? x(

I hope Khushi does give him the silent treatment tomorrow and more - he deserves it. Was good to see her blast him at the end ... even though he shut her up so cruelly.
Quite a few miles added on to that RTR today.

Makes me wonder - will he ever see her repentance as genuine?

Shyam makes more moves ... good! He is getting desperate now!
Mami-Payal scenes are improving slowly.

*edited ... Finally!!! Got time to re-watch the episode after a hectic day running around hospitals and doctors .. My father was not well, hence the emergency trip, fortunately he's doing much better and so I'm in a better mood for the re-watch as well ;) ... thanks so much, girls, for your concern and best wishes!*
Starts with Khushi rubbing it in that she did something smart and saved Arnav's company, so he can be a good boy and say sorry and thank you. Of course Arnav's ego is into top gear immediately ... thank her?! Acknowledge that she proved smarter than him?! After all his pompous remarks on his brain and her lack of it?! No way!
Car screeching to halt ... I pity the brakes on Arnav's cars - he abuses them almost as much as he does Khushi :))
And he disappears ...
And she waits ...
First in anticipation ... he can't speak, maybe he's gone to get me a gift as a sorry and thank you. Then, before I could groan at Khushi's lapse into idiocy again, she acknowledges it herself ... Arnav and gift?! In your dreams, girl!
So true ... she really does know him well!

And being Khushi, she can get into trouble even sitting quietly in a parked car ... I'm bored waiting, let me try my hand at pretending to drive ... and update my diary too - adding to her list of accomplishments, she managed to hurt Arnavji again by accident. Is she making a list of times she hurt Arnav to try and figure out which hurt it was that hurt him so much? Would be nice if they showed her thinking of that once in a while.
Time for trouble ... in the shape of traffic cop ... you're parked in No Parking, show me your license.

Don't have one ... I was just sitting here for fun.
Traffic cop is not amused ... you're not a child pretending to drive ... license or fine ...
HH reappears ... and is very amused to find wifey in trouble, and he's not going to help her out until she apologizes to him, for all the things he was annoyed about - her not telling him about the MIB, her holding forth on sabzi-bhaji ...
On second watch, I still didn't like the uthak-baithak ... should have stopped at holding her ears and saying sorry ... then I would have appreciated Arnav's teasing more ... as it was, it still came across as a mix of sulking and sour grapes ...
And she refuses to speak to him further ... no more demands for apologies or thanks, she's sulking too. Me on Khushi's side on this one ... good girl, give him the silent treatment!

Next day already? And Bitwa's voice still not back, so doctor is called ... doesn't he know of any medication which a diabetic can be given?! And doctor sahab, anti-histaminics are safe for diabetics! Payal suggests asking Buaji/Amma ... worried Khushi goes to do the needful.

Mami-Payal gear up for fashion show and speech. How come Payal speaks good English and not Khushi? Didn't they go to the same school? Good to see Payal's crocodile tears drying up slowly ... the equation slowly changing? Mami's one-liners - remix! =)) desi to videsi =))

Arnav being cajoled like a sulky two year old to be a good boy, drink up his nasty medicine, it's good for him ... and Arnav Bitwa refusing ... something that Khushi made can't be good for him. She's already a point up on the points table, he's not giving her any more opportunities to score.
Bitwa is seriously getting back his lost childhood here :))
Nani finally blackmails Bitwa with Anjali's name ... and Arnav, glaring at Khushi, succumbs ... glaring at her again, daring her to do an 'I told you so ...' wisely, she manages to refrain till he's out of sight.
So the entire family knows how to keep Arnav in order ... use Di ... Bitwa really needs to grow out of his Nirupama Di fixation ... he is so transparently easy to manipulate! 

And Bitwa's voice returns .. much to his surprise ... oh no, she won again? More points to her? No way! So when a worried Khushi comes bursting in, asking if his voice is back, he plays dumb ... literally :))
Khushi getting more and more worked up ... 'this is the first time this kadha hasn't worked' ... smirk, smirk ... 'shouldn't be too surprised, there are lots of things which don't work on him' ... One glare at that one, and she pipes down ... but it's enough, he's loving this, seeing her all worked up and fretting about him, especially when he can now sit back and enjoy it ... so he needles her some more, reminding her of what the doctor said ... and Khushi falls for it ... who said she's smart? He's smarter ... more satisfied smirks as she bustles around cleaning the room ... finishes happily ... and then knocks over the cd rack and a plant with it ... more cleaning to be done! He almost shouts, remembers just in time that he's dumb, and holds back ... whoa, Arnav Singh Raizada, you actually held your temper for once ... just to keep Khushi fooled! So you can hold on to it when you really want to!

Nani tries to reassure Khushi that Arnav will be okay, but Khushi is too worried ... it's all her fault, she has to fix it. Again a pointer to the future - Nani was always Khushi's champion, and now she sees again Khushi's genuine penitence for what was a simple mistake, not a deliberate misdeed.

Shyam into action again - he's getting very desperate if he's trying to break into Arnav's cupboard when he's just outside in his garden. Foiled this time by NQ, with more remedies for Arnav's throat ... and he realizes he's being foolhardy ...

Khushi's last attempt to get back Arnav's voice ... tried and tested Bollywood ... scare him into shouting. And it works :)) Arnav can't stop himself from telling her she's mad!
Mama Mami were hilarious with their dialogues here ... Mama delighted, Mami horrified - hello hi Arnav bye bye ... Mama, wow, I didn't know these gharelu Bollywood nuska's of Khushi worked so well ... Payal chimes in, so does Nani ... Mama adds that now Arnav has to praise Khushi ... and Arnav has had enough ... that's what he's been trying his best to avoid doing all this while ... and he gives the game away himself - 'the stupid Bollywood nuska didn't work, it was the kadha that did the trick, three hours back ...'
Whoops ... hence proved ... yet again ... when Bitwa gets annoyed, his brain goes straight on shut down mode ...

Mama and family are tickled ... so Arnav was fooling them all? Playing pranks? But Khushi is angry ... 'you lied to me, you deceived me ... why?!'
Hit him hard? Was that why his mood changed suddenly? She, who's been lying to him, deceiving him, is accusing him? He doesn't have to ...
He shuts up ... belatedly remembering the listening family members. Mama again very cute ...'we've overstayed our welcome, let Khushi bitiya do the hisaab with Bitwa ... carry on, bitiya' ... leaving no doubt, whose side he's on ... cute Mama!
And alone with Arnav, Khushi blasts again ... 'why did you lie to me? Seeing me so worried, were you having fun?!'
And Arnav lets loose ... 'I didn't want you to get the credit ...' 
Giving Khushi another glimpse of what? His ego? His arrogance? Unless they change the last bit of the scene on Monday, or carry on from there, he hasn't given her any clue as to the real truth bugging him ... the words were chosen to emphasize his ego and his soreness over being shown up to look dumb in his office ...


Thoughts - cv's working very hard on bringing Khushi's character back, thank god they finally woke up. Childlike rather than childish, always ready to accept her fault and try her best to make amends ... and always sensitive to other people's pain. Unfortunately it seems that Arnav is still wearing the blinkers of the terrace scene, which blind him to seeing anything else.

The last dialogues of Arnav's - emphasized his ego more than anything else. On re-watch I got that his mood changed when she said that he lied to her, deceived her, but it wasn't very obvious ... I had to look for the change.Cv's should have emphasized it more ... with some change of bg music or something ... I also looked whether Arnav took a look at Shyam or Shyam took a look at Khushi to set Arnav off, but that didn't happen either.

So this episode and Thursday's seemed to be more about bringing Khushi back on track, and as usual, the cv's tend to go overboard and compromise the other character when they do that ... Friday was about redeeming Khushi and reviving Arnav's ego ... and his blinkered outlook on life. His eyes have seen a scene, his brain processed it, and gave him a hazy conclusion which the frightened, abandoned child in him accepted as the truth - another person he loved has abandoned him, just like his mother did, and all he has left to hold on to is his Di - again. And he can't and won't forget that ... even though his heart tells him time and again that he's wrong. He will not allow himself to soften towards Khushi, admit that she has any redeeming qualities, because he's made up his mind that she abandoned him, and he hates her for that. Even though it's getting difficult to remember that at times ... many times. 

Nani again sees the side of Khushi that always accepts her mistakes and does her best to rectify them or atone for her mistakes ...