Wednesday, October 19, 2011

18/10 - Epi 100 ... Tum bhi chup ho, main bhi chup hun

18th Oct

Tum ho gham ko chupaye
Main hun sar ko jhukaye
Tum bhi chup ho, main bhi chup hun
Kaun kise samjhaye

Ever since I saw the Arnav-Khushi scenes yesterday, these words have been running in my head ...
Khushi, recovering from that mad unthinking moment when she flung herself into his arms ... needing support so badly that she forgot what lay between them ... backing away, horrified at herself ...
Arnav ... belatedly recovering from his frozen state ... but too late ... she had backed off already ... he wanted so badly to comfort her, he knew she needed it, needed him for some strange reason ... he knew her enough by now to know that like him, she also always had a facade on, but today she had removed it ... and he was found wanting ... to his eternal regret ... yet again ... 
tum ho gham ko chupaye
main hun sar ko jhukaye

And the continuum when Khushi comes to RM for her salary ...
tum bhi chup ho, main bhi chup hun ...
kaun kise samjhaye ...
How to reach out ... with the memory of that unfinished moment between them ... awkwardness, embarassment, discomfort ... both with their own regrets ...
why did I reach out to him for comfort ...? 
why didn't I reach out and give her the comfort she needed...?

Coming to the episode -
the first scene ... brilliant! Sanaya was absolutely fantastic ... I found Barun a bit blank today during the hug, he was much better during the apology scene. His expressions were off.
Khushi backs away, horrified, Arnav recovers life and tries to move forward, say 'Khushi' again ... but now she has recovered her senses ... what was she thinking?! And she runs away ...
Loved the part when Khushi stands outside the hospital room ... an outsider of sorts ... Payal, Buaji and Amma eating lunch, worried but comfortable that Khushi is there to look after things ... while Khushi is just getting overwhelmed ... the way she leans against the glass tiredly :( ... and then recovers to wonder again, why? Why did she do such a foolish thing? What would he be thinking? 
Sanaya's expressions, her body language, everything ... superb here ... simply superb!

Arnav at home, pacing up and down ... his own regrets ... but very different ones ... Why??? Why couldn't I reach out to her, comfort her? All she wanted was for someone to say, it's all right, things will be okay, why couldn't I do that much? Why do her tears do this to me?

Skip the Shyam-Bua-Garima scene ... Bua needs a brain transplant asap!

Arnav next morning ... still lost in thoughts of Khushi ... La arrives all bright and chirpy, and hugs him ... still remembering Khushi, he hugs her back ...
Duh, wrong place, wrong time, wrong woman ... and wrong words ... you should have said them yesterday, Arnav!
He doesn't even react to La's chirruping ... (Barun actually looked a bit blank again, but am giving him benefit of doubt here!) ... finally tubelight La realises his mood is off!

Shashi is discharged ... so soon? After a major stroke? Oh well ... medical details ... ignore, ignore. Finally doc says something sensible, recovery does happen with therapy ... got something right! And then adds that Khushi can take her time over the bill ... the Raizada family's presence didn't go unnoticed, fortunately ...
Reminded me a bit of Darcy and Elizabeth of PnP ... how Elizabeth learns of Darcy's goodness from the housekeeper.

Arnav again .. still completely lost ... La trying her best, but she is clueless as to what makes Arnav tick. Anjali does realise that he is upset about Khushi's father, attributes this to his remembering her and Arnav's own loss ... but Arnav is more worried about Khushi ... why couldn't he comfort her, how badly she broke down ... he is feeling her pain again and it's hurting him so badly ...
Loved Barun here, his expressions, and his words ...all he can think about is Khushi and her pain ... finally he is seeing another's pain and it's reaching him, hurting him ... he wanted to be emotionless, aloof, but he can't. It's already too late ...

Khushi and Payal next day with their father ... again, loved the scene, both girls being ultra brave, Payal belatedly!

Khushi goes to collect her salary. Again the silence between Arnav and Khushi ... a silence that speaks, but neither can hear the other through the deafening noise of their own thoughts, their own regrets ...
She ... her memory of throwing herself into his arms ... how could she have done that, embarrassment, awkwardness ... what would he think of her,  was he angry at her presumptuousness ...?
He ... the same memory ... why didn't he comfort her then, why can't he comfort her now ... why can't he do something for her, take that worry and tension off her face ...?
Same memory lies heavy between them ... but very different regrets.

Anjali interrupts as usual ... becoming kabab mein haddi, this girl! Khushi asks for her salary ...
Didn't care for the dabba ... understandable that she was expecting cash, but a plastic box would have done just as well, and would have looked less tacky.
Arnav gives her the cheque, she is dismayed, but all right, she'll deposit it ...
The amount ...? She had calculated for Rs 30,000 ... every last penny is needed desperately and accounted for ... but she hadn't accounted for tax ...

Why is she being paid out of AR funds anyway? Or does their accountant handle each and every payment? Official as well as personal? Scene was meant to show her desperate need for money, and it did ... felt so bad for poor Khushi, the sole breadwinner, with a mountain of problems surrounding her ... but loved the way she managed to keep her dignity intact and left quietly.

Arnav felt even more upset at her obvious dismay about even a small (for him) amount like 3000 rupees ... he tried to make up ... but again, just a little too late ... and Khushi upset again that he would misunderstand her need for money ...
Anjali tells him that Khushi is worried about hospital expenses ... so finally is he going to do something about that?

Again this scene made me tear up ... Sanaya was fantastic yet again, Khushi's worry, her tension, her desperation, which she tries to hide, her dignified quiet retreat ... she has to manage somehow, and she will ...
And Barun was great ... Arnav wanting to reach out, to help, but he's a victim of his own self ... for so long he has kept himself aloof, distanced, that now when he is aching to reach out, he can't ... 

Skip last Shyam-babuji scene ... more of Shyam's taunting, Babuji's helplessness ... and of course Bua won't overhear anything of importance anyway!

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4 comments:

  1. U had me at the title Diya...i LOVE that song, its a classic! and how perfectly it fitted ArShi's situation, only you could make me see it...khushi in immense pain n arnav, though wanting to reach out, could do nothing but stand n bow down with regret..

    The acting bit I was referring to was more in the hug with La, even while thinking of khushi, arnav seemed kinda distant, like it was forced n not natural...but his regret over not being able to comfort n desperation to reach out later on was amazing...no more mr ice man for sure!

    as for sanaya, need I say it...she was brilliant, as we have been accustomed to now :))

    Gr8 post again...now I'm gonna be thinking of that song all day, esp that peck on the cheek, awwwwie...m talking about the movie ofcourse ;))

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  2. Awww Shilpi ... I dunno why, but somehow when I watched their scenes, especially the silence between them when she comes for her money, this song just played itself in my mind ... there is so much pathos in the song, and there was so much pathos in the scene ... both Barun and Sanaya did beautifully there all through, right till the part when she leaves and he comes rushing back with the extra cheque.

    Yep, at two points Barun was a bit blank ... or maybe it's just that Sanaya gets so much emotion into her eyes, it is actually difficult for her costar to match up. In his individual scene when he first got back home and was pacing, he was great and in the scene with La and Anjali also, I really liked him ... expression, voice modulation, everything ... his regrest was palpable and very touching.

    Sanaya of course ... don't need to say it ... she outdoes herself every single time ... even when we know she's great at the emotional scenes, she still leaves us spellbound. Aren't you delighted at the producer's comments?! I was grinning like a moron when I read them! She has poured her heart and soul into Khushi ... and she has such a wide range to display her talent now!

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  3. Oh yeah...that comment was huge...coming straight from the producer, I'd say humongous...San fully deserves it ofcourse..said this on IF also...it's sometimes so hard to believe the same person played gunji n now is playing khushi's role...she is just incredible!

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  4. Best is ... I read an iv of Rati's ... where she says she has to try to introduce shades into her new role, because being serious doesn't give you much scope ... I felt like *rofl*ing at that one!!! The way Sanaya introduced shades and layers into Gunjan, VERY few actresses would be able to do the same ... seems Ratz is sweating already at the thought! It was easy for her to play Nupur, an author backed role ... let her try to do serious now and bring subtlety and the right expressions into that ... not so easy!!!

    And honestly you look at Gunjan and you look at Khushi ... hard to believe they're the same person! They even look so different!!!

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