Sajan ... Sajan

4th Feb

Starts with Nups wanting to "save" her sister :( :( :(
Last bit of Sajan date ...mmmmmm :):):)

MN in auto "coincidentally going towards farmhouse, "coincidentally" get down for walk, and M tells N SG are here for their date. So Nups knows that Mayank knows and is cool with it, but N knows better, doesn't she???!!! She has to 'save' her sister (how I wish I had the grrr emoticon here!)

Sajan all awkward after that verrrry close moment - did they, didn't they? ;) Don't think they did. Gunji wondering what's happening to her, she never felt this way around Samrat before ... sighhhhhh, darling, you're deeply in love, and falling deeper and deeper every day - and I don't blame you one bit!!!!!
Samrat tells Gunjan - "remember always what I'm saying to you today, you make my life worth living, you're the dream I dreamed yesterday, you're my reality today and you're my hope for tomorrow."
Oh god, how MUCH he loves her ... she's his life, his reason for living, the most bright and beautiful thing in his life, she's his very breath ...
she tells him "samrat, mujhe chhodo', he tells her "I'm not holding you, chashmish, tum khud hi khinchi chali aa rahi ho" ... my stomach did about a million cartwheels here ...

She drops something on her dress, he tells her to go change ...

MN reach, Nups says let's go meet SG, M most unwilling, N lets out that she's planned this all because she wants to save her sister - shit, woman, can you STOP lying?????? If you're so convinced about your 'save my sister' mission, why are you lying to your own husband - simple, because you know it's not about 'save my sister' it's all about 'why my sister has it better than me' and if your husband got to know that, he would slap you all the way to Timbuktoo!!!

Samrat enters the room where Gunjan is changing, one shoulder bare ... and I have NEVER seen Gunjan looking so stunningly, ethereally amazingly beautiful ... pure, innocent, like a pure white rose unfurling its petals ... no wonder it's his turn to go close to her as though he can't help it, she is beautiful, she is divine and she is his ... he pulls up her sleeve, thunder and she's in his arms ... the MOST cliched scenario and my stomach just did another couple of million cartwheels again at the sight of Gunji in pure white clinging to Samrat for dear life - because she trusts him to shelter her from her every fear and every danger that could ever confront her.

he tells her not to be scared, then he kisses her forehead, her cheek ... goes to kiss her ... but Gunji is scared, not of him but of herself, and even in this completely intensely passionately romantic moment, she pulls away and says 'no, samrat, it isn't right ...' and he lets her go, because he will NEVER EVER do anything against her will, or anything SHE feels is not right ... that is the ultimate truth for him ...

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MN enter ... Nups thinks she's the heroine of some C grade film - dialogues like 'thank god i came in time' and goes on to flay Samrat, you think gunjan is like all the other girls, you'll use her ... blah, blah ... Samrat tries to tell her that things are not what they look like
(MN are really a made for each other couple - they both jump to conclusions first and think later - the difference is Mayank seems to have realised his mistake, but Nupur still hasn't and is AS impulsive and hotheaded as before.
Gunjan getting progressively more upset with what Nupur is saying, Mayank is completely embarrassed ... Samrat is more and more hurt that how can Nupur, of all people think that he could do anything to hurt Gunjan ... and Nupur isn't thinking - when does she ever?!

Finally Nups says - you'll use Gunjan like all the other girls and Gunji has had enough. But she still has the decency to ask Samrat to leave because this is between the sisters - Nupur didn't have the decency to do that - first in front of the gang, she asked Gunji that question and now, without bothering to ascertain facts, she's let loose ...

Samrat and Mayank leave ... Gunji tries to explain, she came of her own free will, and FINALLY Nupur's truth comes out, her real feelings, what has really been eating her up - it's not about Gunjan and Samrat at all, or about mistrusting Samrat, only one thing is eating her - SHE has been thrown out of the house, called the bad daughter by her father, for whom she was willing to give up her love, SHE has been misunderstood ... and her younger sister who has done exactly the same thing, has fallen in love, is spending alone time with her boyfriend, is getting away scot free ... is still her father's ideal daughter, while she, Nupur, is not. THAT is what is eating her - being protective about Gunji is all BULLSHIT - if her marriage had been accepted by bauji AND if Gunji hadn't shown she felt Bauji was right in his opinion, Nupur would have been completely happy and ecstatic about this date, because she knows what it's like to be in love and she's always felt Samrat was perfect for Gunjan herself. No, it's Nupur who was being completely two-faced and hypocritical about her feelings till now - finally it's no holds barred and she's told the real truth why Samrat and Gunjan's smooth sailing love story is bothering her so much! (And all the Nupur fans, of course!)

and Gunji of course realises that ... and for once, gentle Gunjan is thoroughly riled up, because Nupur has insulted Samrat so badly so Gunjan lets loose herself - okay, fine, THIS is what's bothering you, isn't it, that Bauji still loves me and not you - well, too bad, the way your wedding happened WASN'T right, it broke his heart, it broke his dreams ... and Nupur comes back with "and what are you doing? is this the way you're fulfilling his dreams?"

Gunjan interrupts - di, please!!!

WHAT is Nupur accusing Gunjan of wanting to do? or saying that she was going to do? Sleep with Samrat? Does she really think Gunjan would do that?! If so, does she know her sister AT ALL? Or is she just being Nupur - hot headed, careless, don't think before I talk Nupur ... because later when she cools down, she'll say sorry and everything will be all right?

Well, news for you, Nupur. You can't keep on and on doing that. Saying whatever comes into your head without thinking and then feeling sorry about it later. Words hurt, they leave wounds, invisible ones which don't heal so fast and if they do, they cause rifts. Go on this way and you will really cause an unbreachable rift between yourself and your sister. Sure, you were justified in jumping to some conclusions when you saw Gunjan and Samrat - but you know what? You WANTED to believe the worst - despite everything you know about your sister and Samrat to the contrary, you WANTED to believe that your sister could make the same or worse mistakes as you, because it would justify, in your heart, the hatred you feel towards her for continuing to be Bauji's favourite daughter when you yourself have been thrown out.

Now - Gunjan's pov. She loves Nupur, she believes in her love and her relationship with Mayank, of course she does - she wouldn't have been with them every step of teh way if she didn't. But she does realise that her father has also been hurt in this - being insulted by baraatis and the baraat walking out because of slurs being cast on your daughter's reputation is every father's nightmare and it happened to her father. And that is what hurts Gunjan - not the MN marriage, but that the way it happened hurt her father - only Nupur is not willing to accept that Gunjan could do anything but support her 100%. Over-possessive love - she cannot accept that Gunjan could have any point of view other than hers (Nupur's). Well, Gunjan is growing up, she has her own mind and she can use it - she always did, only it was never against her sister before. This time it is, and Gunjan has just said what she feels - she avoided saying it earlier because she knew it would hurt Nupur, but today, being riled up beyond control, she said it. And hurt Nupur again - she knows she did, but hey, Gunjan is human, if Nupur is entitled to speak without thinking and hurt Gunjan, why doesn't Gunjan have the same right?

The other thing - Why gunjan doesn't feel she is doing anything wrong in coming for a date with Samrat. Biggest point - she trusts Samrat completely. Even bigger point - she knows that Bauji has trusted Samrat enough to give him her and her sister's responsibility. And when he met Samrat again at the wedding, he repeated that he though Samrat was a good boy. So Gunjan feels she has Bauji's endorsement for Samrat. Third point - Bauji was willing to meet Mayank and make an independent judgement even after Bui's rantings - the problem was that Mayank fouled it up, not once, but twice, first with the ladder, then coming to Nupur's house in the groom's clothes - so Bauji has justification for disliking Mayank - he didn't just blindly chuck him out with a 'how dare you love my daughter' thing - in other words, Bauji is a reasonable parent, thinks Gunjan, and he already likes Samrat. Fourthly the last problem with Mayank - how will he support Nupur, where will he keep her - doesn't apply to Samrat - he's wealthy enough and has not one but two houses as of last count, so no problems there. If anything, Bauji should be thrilled at getting a damaad like Samrat - sanskaari (how I hate that word) AND rich. The only sticking point might be Samrat's broken family.
And lastly - even if something like what happened with Nupur happens with Gunjan, Samrat will do exactly the same thing Mayank did - he will marry Gunjan without a second's hesitation if he feels there is even the slightest possibility of Gunjan getting a bad name because of him. And he will do this regardless of his own demons or doubts about marriage - because for him Chashmish comes first. Gunjan trusts him completely on this one - the terrace conversation they had the night before Nupur's wedding was for that.
But Gunjan will not go too far with Samrat, for one, her own inhibitions, the second, her morals - but again, she's human, she's deeply in love, she's on her first romantic date with Samrat and he has pulled out all the stops to make it beautiful, memorable and meaningful for her ... and she's feeling the first stirrings of desire herself almost as strongly as Samrat is.

So what exactly has Nupur achieved with her breaking into Sajan's date?
- She's caused her husband embarrassment in front of his best friend, a guy who has supported them throughout and who is even now helping them with a place to stay.

- She's insulted a guy who has been a friend to her, apart from the fact that he has been her own choice for her sister, even at a time when he was dating another girl (so how come she just realised he's a casanova??!!!) by accusing him of doing things he hasn't even done, without bothering to find out the truth. If she could want to confront him about Gunjan's feelins while he was still dating Sheena, why could she not confront him now about why he's giving her sister an inappropriate gift? The answer - she didn't want to. She WANTED her sister to be the one at fault, to wear the dress so that she could catch her red-handed and prove that Gunjan is as 'bad' as Nupur.

- She's hurt her sister deeply enough by insulting her boyfriend, that Gunjan could lash out to hurt her back.

Anything positive in all of this? Not that I can see.
She's real, all right. She's just not a very nice 'real' at the moment. and you can justify blue murder if you shout loud enough. Still doesn't make it right.

All I can say is - this is a realistic track, because all siblings actually don't have the kind of relationship Gunur had, minus any fights at all. The other word for a healthy close sibling relationship is 'fight'. That's exactly what Sanaya said in her interview and she is absolutely right. So I still quite like this track, especially as my Gunjan is on the higher moral ground here.

And I am LOVING the SG romance :):):):):):)