20th July Wednesday
Both restless, both confused ... something is not right ... but what is it exactly that's wrong?
Edited -
After watching Wednesday's episode, I realised why I wasn't 100% convinced by Khushi's outburst on Tuesday. It was because Khushi herself wasn't convinced of what she was saying ... Khushi, not Sanaya. Sanaya played it beautifully ... her outburst last Monday in the guesthouse had all the passion of the moment and one could feel the emotions spilling forth, the anger, the despair, the hate for ASR that had accumulated slowly during her hours of confinement in the guesthouse wondering whether she would make it out alive ... all of it was there in her fiery reaction. But on Tuesday, it was forced. Because Khushi didn't want to do what she was doing - she was handing in her resignation because of her loved ones, her sister and her parents, her bua ... because of their pressure. Left to herself, she would not have given up, she would have gone back to work, head held high, to show ASR - you even tried to kill me, yet here I am ...
But the fear and worry of Payal and her parents changed her mind - she had to change her mind, she had no choice, for her, her family and their peace of mind comes first, so she said she would resign. Her own pride didn't want her to at all. And that internal battle was what made her fire up at ASR's completely innocent question, and take off on such a long spiel ... at every step she seemed to be waiting for him to reply, to shut her up the way he always does, to challenge her back, so that she could have some excuse, any excuse, to say, okay, you're telling me I'm a loser? Fine, I'll prove you wrong, I'll stay.
But he didn't. He waited for her to run out of steam, then asked, are you done? And held out his hand for the letter. And she had no option left but to hand it over. And as she left, she turned as though to question him, is that really it? Are you really letting me go?
So somewhere deep inside, Khushi is starting to feel that same strange tug that Arnav has started to feel. Not love, by a long way, not even attraction yet ... but the feeling that he is a part of her life, and will be for a long time ...
And that's why all through her walk back, she wonders, why is this not right? I should be overjoyed, I told him everything that was in my heart, I yelled at him, I threw my resignation in his face, I should be happy, it is my victory ... then why is feeling so hollow? Why am I not happy? Why do I feel something is very wrong?
Arnav - Barun is not as good an actor as Sanaya, plus he has less dialogues, the only way to get his feelings is through his interactions with Anjali, but here goes. Why was Arnav silent? Well, he just spent the night agonising over the fact that due to him Khushi nearly lost her life. If he hadn't reached in time, he would have been responsible for anything that happened to her. Anjali had already jolted his conscience into unwilling action by asking why are you doing this to her? What has she done to you? And he doesn't know what Khushi has done. Why is she so successful in getting under his skin? Is it because she reminds of himself at a younger age, when he was equally vulnerable, equally idealistic? Does he want to crush her because his ideals were crushed out of him, and he wants to prove to himself that it wasn't his fault he changed, it wasn't a weakness to change, it was necessary? So Khushi not changing, hanging on to her ideals shows him that no, he's wrong, he was weak to change, and she is stronger than him. And mixed with that, a reluctant admiration, getting stronger every day ... and helped by the fact that Khushi is a beautiful young girl ... maybe he's at the stage when he wants her to lose, yet hopes she won't ...
He did try to stop her, to say something, to justify himself, but Khushi was in full flow ... so he let her let it out. Because he realised that she needed to vent ... he had piled abuse on abuse on her and she had taken it all quietly ... now the dam had burst and the floods were raging forth. Better to let the storm spend its fury ... and restart the battle another day. That's why when she wound up, he just asked, are you done? And she said yes, I'm done.
Slate wiped clean. We start again. Afresh. Anew. This time as equals. No talk about aukat, haisiyat, pedigree, status ... this is between you and me. Khushi. And Arnav Singh Raizada.
Maybe the next step will be the battle between Khushi and Arnav. Or maybe between Khushi and Arnav on one side, and ASR on the other. I think Khushi's team will have Anjali on it by then, although right now, Anjali is merely wondering. Though how and why Anjali wants Lavanya to fast for Arnav is beyond me at the moment.
*Edit* .. the part I loved about Wednesday's episode- Arnav and Khushi holding the beads and the mannat ki chaabi respectively ... each holding something belonging to the other. Although they have parted ways today, the saga has started, they each hold a part of the other within their hearts now, and the tangible objects won't let them forget that. However much they both try to pretend otherwise - Arnav vehemently and repeatedly denying to Anjali that Khushi means anything to him, and Khushi telling Payal that she wants to meet ASR again only to blow up some more.
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Both restless, both confused ... something is not right ... but what is it exactly that's wrong?
Edited -
After watching Wednesday's episode, I realised why I wasn't 100% convinced by Khushi's outburst on Tuesday. It was because Khushi herself wasn't convinced of what she was saying ... Khushi, not Sanaya. Sanaya played it beautifully ... her outburst last Monday in the guesthouse had all the passion of the moment and one could feel the emotions spilling forth, the anger, the despair, the hate for ASR that had accumulated slowly during her hours of confinement in the guesthouse wondering whether she would make it out alive ... all of it was there in her fiery reaction. But on Tuesday, it was forced. Because Khushi didn't want to do what she was doing - she was handing in her resignation because of her loved ones, her sister and her parents, her bua ... because of their pressure. Left to herself, she would not have given up, she would have gone back to work, head held high, to show ASR - you even tried to kill me, yet here I am ...
But the fear and worry of Payal and her parents changed her mind - she had to change her mind, she had no choice, for her, her family and their peace of mind comes first, so she said she would resign. Her own pride didn't want her to at all. And that internal battle was what made her fire up at ASR's completely innocent question, and take off on such a long spiel ... at every step she seemed to be waiting for him to reply, to shut her up the way he always does, to challenge her back, so that she could have some excuse, any excuse, to say, okay, you're telling me I'm a loser? Fine, I'll prove you wrong, I'll stay.
But he didn't. He waited for her to run out of steam, then asked, are you done? And held out his hand for the letter. And she had no option left but to hand it over. And as she left, she turned as though to question him, is that really it? Are you really letting me go?
So somewhere deep inside, Khushi is starting to feel that same strange tug that Arnav has started to feel. Not love, by a long way, not even attraction yet ... but the feeling that he is a part of her life, and will be for a long time ...
And that's why all through her walk back, she wonders, why is this not right? I should be overjoyed, I told him everything that was in my heart, I yelled at him, I threw my resignation in his face, I should be happy, it is my victory ... then why is feeling so hollow? Why am I not happy? Why do I feel something is very wrong?
Arnav - Barun is not as good an actor as Sanaya, plus he has less dialogues, the only way to get his feelings is through his interactions with Anjali, but here goes. Why was Arnav silent? Well, he just spent the night agonising over the fact that due to him Khushi nearly lost her life. If he hadn't reached in time, he would have been responsible for anything that happened to her. Anjali had already jolted his conscience into unwilling action by asking why are you doing this to her? What has she done to you? And he doesn't know what Khushi has done. Why is she so successful in getting under his skin? Is it because she reminds of himself at a younger age, when he was equally vulnerable, equally idealistic? Does he want to crush her because his ideals were crushed out of him, and he wants to prove to himself that it wasn't his fault he changed, it wasn't a weakness to change, it was necessary? So Khushi not changing, hanging on to her ideals shows him that no, he's wrong, he was weak to change, and she is stronger than him. And mixed with that, a reluctant admiration, getting stronger every day ... and helped by the fact that Khushi is a beautiful young girl ... maybe he's at the stage when he wants her to lose, yet hopes she won't ...
He did try to stop her, to say something, to justify himself, but Khushi was in full flow ... so he let her let it out. Because he realised that she needed to vent ... he had piled abuse on abuse on her and she had taken it all quietly ... now the dam had burst and the floods were raging forth. Better to let the storm spend its fury ... and restart the battle another day. That's why when she wound up, he just asked, are you done? And she said yes, I'm done.
Slate wiped clean. We start again. Afresh. Anew. This time as equals. No talk about aukat, haisiyat, pedigree, status ... this is between you and me. Khushi. And Arnav Singh Raizada.
Maybe the next step will be the battle between Khushi and Arnav. Or maybe between Khushi and Arnav on one side, and ASR on the other. I think Khushi's team will have Anjali on it by then, although right now, Anjali is merely wondering. Though how and why Anjali wants Lavanya to fast for Arnav is beyond me at the moment.
*Edit* .. the part I loved about Wednesday's episode- Arnav and Khushi holding the beads and the mannat ki chaabi respectively ... each holding something belonging to the other. Although they have parted ways today, the saga has started, they each hold a part of the other within their hearts now, and the tangible objects won't let them forget that. However much they both try to pretend otherwise - Arnav vehemently and repeatedly denying to Anjali that Khushi means anything to him, and Khushi telling Payal that she wants to meet ASR again only to blow up some more.
Links
Part 1 HD
Part 2 HD
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