Unspoken fears, unexpressed emotions

29th July

Hospital - MD with doc, doubts about Nups body being mixed with another Nups.

Sajan - after years, and after the bitterness of the last months, they're finally talking normally. And so, the ice broken with the missing pants :), Gunjan finally starts talking to Samrat without the bitterness and hatred ... and tells him the story of Devdas and Paro. Is she telling the DevdasParo story? Or is it their own story? A story of two friends turned lovers, who loved each other madly, passionately, without caring for the world around them, a love as pure as the morning dew ...
And as Samrat listens, Dil Ibadat plays ...

Dil Ibadat Kar Raha Hai
Dhadkane Meri Sun
Tujhko Main Kar Loon Hasil Lagi Hai Yahi Dhun
Zindagi Ki Shaakh Se Loon Kuchh Hasin Pal main Chun
Tujhko Main Kar Loon Hasil Lagi Hai Yahi Dhun

Jo bhi jitne pal jiyun, unhe tere sang jiyun
Jo bhi kal ho ab mera, use tere sang jiyun
Jo bhi saansein main bharun, unhe tere sang bharun
Chaahe jo ho raasta, use tere sang chalun
Dil ibadat kar raha hai, dhadkanein meri sun,
tujhko main kar loon hasil lagi hai yehi dhun

Mujhko De Tu Mit Jaane
Ab Khudse Dil Mil Jaane
Kyu Hai Yeh Itna Faasla....
Lamhe Yeh Phir Naa Aane
Inko Tu Naa De Jaane
Tu Mujh Pe Khudko De Loota.....
Tujhe Tujhse Tod Loo, Kahi Khudse Jod Loo
Mere Jism O Jaan Mein Aa Teri Khusboo Odh Loo

Jo Bhi Saanse Main Bharoo Unhe Tere Sang Bharoo
Chahe Jo Ho Rasta Use Tere Sang Chalu
Dil Ibadat Kar Raha Hai
Dhadkane Meri Sun
Tujhko Main Kar Loo Hasil Lagi Hai Yahi Dhun

Bahoon Main De Bas Jaane
Seene Main De Chhup Jaane
Tujh Bin Main Jaaun to Kaha????
Tujhse Hai Mujhe Ko Paane Yaado K Woh Nazrane
Ek Jinpe Haq Ho Bas Mera

Teri Yaado Main Rahoo
Tere Khwabo Main Jagoo
Mujhe Doondhe Jab Koi
Teri Aankho Main Milu

Jo Bhi Saanse Main Bharoo
Unhe Tere Sang Bharoo
Chahe Jo ho Rasta Use Tere Sang Chalu

Dil Ibadat Kar Raha Hai
Dhadkane Meri Sun
Tujhko Main Kar Loo Hasil Lagi Hai Yahi Dhun

Yes, it's their own story ... how much they loved each other, without boundaries, without reason, two bodies, one soul ... their love was invincible, would triumph over all difficulties.
But that was not to be ... and they were tossed apart by a storm that left them like opposite sides of a river, running together, yet always apart, never to meet ...
and her voice is choked with her tears ... at the thought of them never meeting ...

His hand goes up to hold her, then clenches and falls back ...
and she turns as though she can't bear it any longer, and holds him tight, her tears flowing in the pain of their separation, a pain she can finally express, a pain that he has given her, and he alone can heal ... in a place that is always home - his arms. And as his arms come slowly to hold her, her soul, tortured for the last three years, begins to find peace.

And he says, no, every love story doesn't end like Devdas and Paro's. I will make everything all right again.
And as he speaks, she remembers again, and pushes out of his arms, and stares at him ... no, the ghosts have not been laid to rest yet. But the bitterness and anger is past, it's only the sorrow and the pain that's left, as she runs... but not too far. It's as though she can't put the distance between them again, but she can't yet bridge it either ... what is she to do? And as he sees her struggling, he feels her pain even more deeply ... and he is the cause. He needs to step back, maybe his nearness is deepening her wounds ... he doesn't see that he's cauterising them, laying them bare, so that they can start healing ...

But she does ... dimly, she knows ... as she turns to look back at him ...
He looks away ... no, he will not hurt her again ...
And as she looks away in her turn, he looks back ...
Both so deeply in love, a love that can't be denied for much longer ... a longing that is growing stronger every day ...

She pulls herself together ... I'm going out, Ash and Rohan are rehearsing.
A pause, as she looks away, then back ... will you come?
Yes, the bitterness, the anger is gone ... finally. And the love, the longing is coming back. But the conflict still goes on within ...
He tells her to go, he'll come later. She nods very slightly, and goes.

Sam tries to call Mayank, but what to say to him? Will mayank feel he's hurting Gunjan again?
Mayank starts to tell Sam where he is, Dia stops him, and they both hang up.

RoAsh rehearsing ... Ash getting into the act, wondering why Chandramukhi didn't confess her feelings to Dev, Gunjan tells her maybe Dev wasn't looking for her love, and that would break her heart.
Ro wants a Chunilal-Chandramukhi track ... this guy is cute! Gunjan tells him, no! and asks Samrat to intervene.
But Samrat is lost somewhere. He tells Rohan to listen to Gunjan, and walks away quietly. Leaving Gunjan wondering ...

And now she can't leave him like this. Because she has started seeing him again ... she blinded herself to his feelings all this while, but now she can't anymore. So she follows him ... after all, whenever she goes near him, his entire attention is always focussed on her.
But not this time. And as he walks away again, she is left even more puzzled ... and disturbed.

Mayank was good in the scene when he thinks Nups might be alive. Don't know why he would be so delighted that Nups is coming back, but guess the guy has to follow the script!

Links youtube
part 1
part 2
part 3
part 4
part 5

Naveen's links
dil ibadat