9/10 - Epi 93 ... Intrepid, incessantly talkative, irrepressible Khushi :)

9th Oct Mahaepisode

Boy, how much she talks! *rofl* If nobody is around, she can talk to herself, but talk she must!
The episode showcased the changing equations between Arnav and Khushi - Arnav becoming more and more tolerant of Khushi and her shenanigans, Khushi becoming more and more talkative in front of him and losing her fear of her LG, the subtlest touch of awareness on her side as he fixed her Bluetooth, the smallest signs of regrets on his as the memory of her fear of fast cars made him slow down, and she reminded him with just a trace of sulkiness but no real accusation, that he had broken her phone. I really like that they are taking the Khushi Arnav story very slowly ... don't want them falling in love till Khushi has grown up a little more. As for the humour, I don't expect much better from GH ... it was okay to cute in parts - Khushi sitting in the boot and munching pakoras, her offer to push the car while he steered *rofl* ... she is no damsel in distress for sure! Intrepid Khushi! and her incessant bakbak in the jungle. Also loved the way Arnav knew she was following him, told her to come out into the open without a trace of anger, and told her to keep shut! All in all, I admired Arnav for keeping his cool when faced with irrepressible Khushi in her element!

La got into more trouble, Nani making it very clear that La can't manage a thing without Khushi, which La also realises! Mami upset at La's changing camps!

Shashi babu got annoyed that Buaji and Garima had matched horoscopes without even asking him ... Shashi babu, you need to get more forceful about this Shyam character! And finally he does get something concrete - that Shyam's date of birth on horoscope and DL are different. But Shyam on the other hand knows that Shashu babu is not as gullible as Buaji. Is Shyam's obsession for Khushi going to prove stronger than his need for Rani Sahiba as a meal ticket? Guess so, otherwise story won't progress.

And in the end, Khushi is lost ...
Normal soaps, Kekta types, and even usual SO types - goondas etc. This soap ... not sure! she could be sitting somewhere at a dhaba eating her fill. Or she could have found them a ride to Nainital ...

7/10 - Epi 92 ... RIP ASR, Arnav is coming back to life

7th Oct

The last two weeks have been punctuated with milestones in the Arshi relationship, and the thawing of ASR ... and today ASR finally dissolved into Arnav. Beautifully done episode from start to end ... although I could have done without the jumping between the Payash scenes ...

And ASR laughed ... or should I say, Arnav laughed ... 

*edited*
Quick synopsis and my thoughts :) This is an episode that really can't be described, it has to be seen and felt ... the subtle play of emotions on the faces of the actors, especially Sanaya in the kitchen scene, moving between awareness and concern ... and the visible change in Arnav, the laughter in his eyes even after Khushi leaves, as though a weight has been removed from his heart and the long-dead Arnav has truly started to return to life.

Arnav feeling dizzy, goes to kitchen, Khushi tells him to get out, he's in no state to listen, she turns away and he collapses ...
Aapne vrat rakha hai kya? *rofl* ... aww ...
She does all the right things, try to call Anjali and La to find out what is wrong, what should she do ...
He collapses further ... Khushi freaks out even more ...
The first of the bits I loved ... the way she supports him, then gets lost in him ... full circle, deja vu of the first time he supported her when she fainted in the guesthouse, then got lost in looking at her ...
Sanaya did this simply beautifully, her expressions varying between awareness and concern, and as she gets on with the immediate task of supporting him, feeding him, being completely alert to what he needs, but the background awareness never quite goes away ... I think the bg music added to the effect, but I was totally lost in her face and the worry emanating from it ...

He manages to tell her he needs sugar ... Barun did this part beautifully, the muttered 'Khushi, meetha' ... Khushi even checks, are you sure, you're not supposed to have sugar ... but he mutters again and she runs to get something ...
Jalebis ... but of course ... remember you wanted to feed your husband jalebis, Khushi?
Again this scene can't be described ...as she feeds him, the worry on her face, Arnav slowly recovering, Khushi supporting him every inch of the way, as he groggily gets to his feet, the hands on either side ... for support, not to threaten ... does he remember? Deja vu again ... He sees the worried face, the concern, tells her, almost brusquely, 'hato' ... as though annoyed that he still needs support ...or that she thinks he needs it ... but she's too worried to register it ... so he removes her hand gently and starts to leave ...

"Aap theek to hain na?"
So worried still ... he nods slightly. Does the concern in her voice reach him? warm him?
"Kya hua aapko?"
He tells her briefly ... his blood sugar dropped, he came to get sugar.
Stumbles again, she reaches automatically to support him again ... he recovers to tell her, don't tell anyone.
"But are you all right?" Her overriding concern for him wrapping around them... yes, he nods, and leaves.
Leaving her worried and guilty ... you came for sugar and I ...
Again full circle ... his guilt about the GH drove him crazy for a while, her guilt about her shouting driving her crazy now ...

Interspersed with Akash near Payal's house, bond over sabzi buying ... this couple just showcases why a love story needs problems, otherwise it can turn completely bland ... this one is about as exciting as hospital food!

Anjali, Nani and Mami return, (return of the Om Prakash with them ;)  Anjali asks why Khushi called her, Khushi makes some excuse, but she's still distracted by her worry over Arnav ...
And Mami is still in La camp ...
Khushi can't think about anything except Arnav and his fainting ... and her own guilt ... why did she shout at him like that?
Arnav getting ready to leave for Nainital ... Khushi can't stop herself any more, goes to say sorry ... she is such a sweetheart ... forgets all about the fact that she looked after him when he blacked out, in her remorse and worry, why did I yell at him for no reason?
And the adorable Arshi scene ... Khushi trying to apologise, Arnav has already forgiven her ... heck, he doesn't even remember her yelling, all he remembers is her worry and the way she supported him, helped him, was worried, so worried for him ... as she blabbers on about her mistake, and begs for forgiveness, he's not even listening, he's just looking at her, the way she's smearing herself with besan all over her face in her anxiety and full on blabber mode ... and he starts laughing ... at the picture she makes, at her innocence, her cuteness, her so-touching worry, the heartfelt regret for such a small mistake ... at the bundle of contradictions that is Khushi ...
and Khushi stares at this laughing Arnav in wonderment ... for the first time seeing him laughing wholeheartedly, the shadows gone from his face ... I don't blame her for being thunderstruck ...

Anjali is overjoyed that Arnav is laughing for the first time in years ... Arnav recovers himself belatedly ... but not completely ... points to Khushi's besan smeared face ... and the siblings laugh again ... Khushi recovers slightly and runs to wash her face ...
Arnav stops laughing, but the smile still there in his eyes ... is he feeling lighter in his heart? Laughter is strong medicine indeed ... has it started dissolving the bitterness frozen inside him? And now the thaw has started, will he be ever able to go back to being the stern-faced, stoic, frozen and emotionless ASR?

Arnav has started emerging from ASR after years ... from where he was buried deep inside ...

And Khushi thinks so too ... as she pauses outside, looks back as she remembers his laughter again, and murmurs ... when you laugh, you don't look like Laad Governer at all ... with the softest of smiles ... aww Khushi, that wasn't Laad Governer laughing, it was Arnav ... and it's Arnav you will fall in love with. And it's Arnav you will force out of his ASR shell and into the world of the living again.

Rest of episode was about La and her 'alogee' and missing the Nainital trip ... contrast again between Arnav's attitude towards Khushi and towards La ... he found it so easy to forgive Khushi, but La earns his wrath yet again!
Khushi upto her tricks, emptying the petrol, and fixing up creature comforts inside the boot for La's tryst with Arnav, including all-important food ... and of course, she gets trapped inside ...
so Khushi and Arnav on the way to Nainital just in time for the Mahaepisode ... thank you, CV's!!!

6/10 - Epi 91 ... Awwlicious ... Khushilicious :-)

6th Oct

My post today doesn't make too much sense ... I was too busy going aww and grinning like an idiot ;-)

Awwlicious Khushilicious episode ... how can anyone NOT be in love with this girl?! Such a sweetheart ... poor Arnav baby is struggling hard, sulking, pouting ... I don't want to talk to you, it's all your fault, you told the kids to do all this, you've messed up my life, my mind ... and my heart ...
She begs him to forgive the kids ... he sulks - no, I won't. It's all your fault. Kids helpfully pipe up, no jijaji, it's not didi's fault.
Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings ... awww ...
The stolen glances ... aww again ...

He leaves, she follows with the kids ... he's rude to the kids, Anjali enters and intervenes, he hurts Anjali as well and leaves again ...
Anjali falls ... Khushi calls out to everyone ... Anrav thinks she's playacting again and he ignores.
Khushi to the rescue ... the sensible, mature, thinking Khushi ... gets Anjali to the sofa, restores her brace, calls the others. Arnav rushes, horrified but Anjali is unforgiving ... Nani emphasizes Khushi did everything ... I love cupid Nani :-)
Arnav repeats Khushi's words about forgiving ... lolzz ... Khushi startled, stolen glances again ... awww ... Nani Anjali equally aww ... who taught you all this? Has Khushi got another pupil besides La?
Stolen glances again ... awww ...
Kids apologise again, Arnav forgives them. But they're not sorry about the mustache, because it looks good on him ... *rofl*
Loved the way Khushi shushed that little girl guiltily ... looked like a mom shushing a child to not tell dad! 
Anjali points out that sounds like Khushi again ... Khushi blushes ... more stolen glances and aww ... am losing count here! *rofl*
La is feeling very left out ... or is it out of place? And just a bit insecure?

Kanjak puja ... Khushi explains to La, helps with the puja, one girl kisses Khushi, Anjali beams, and La feels even more uncertain.

Family gathering post puja ... Khushi brings tea, totally into bahu of the house mode, she really seems like part of the family now ... Arnav looks at her ... this guy just can't stop looking at her now ... awww! Nani clarifies what was puzzling me ... how have they managed to keep this a secret from Arnav for so many years ... kids were naughtier this year ... plus, I think Arnav spent more time in office earlier! Ab toh jab dekho, he's back home!
Liked mami's line ... kanya puja has been khufiya puja all these years!
Is it my imagination, or is mami also warming up to Khushi, and getting tired of La?

Khushi leaves, Arnav watches her go ... again???!!! *rofl* And she's got him on his Achilles' heel today ... her care for Anjali ... he's beginning to realise she is not what he thought her to be ... and to see her caring nature for everyone ... so when Anjali mentions Khushi was fasting, he goes to give her the dabba of prasad ... liked Nani's slight smile when he gets up ... Nani cupidwa ;-)

Cute klutzy Khushi re-emerges ... what have I done now? I didn't do anything, it wasn't me, I didn't break the pot ... shades of K3G again ... Arnav tells her firmly to shut up, and gives her the dabba ... heartbeats haywire again ... she snatches the dabba and runs ... Arnav left wondering ... ajeeb hai yeh!

Later Khushi stares at the dabba ... without eating a thing ... a first for her! He gave it ... aww. But life was so much easier when he was always mean to her ... now her heartbeats are driving her crazy!
So she decides to stay away from him ... na rahega baans, na bajegi bansuri!

And she tells him so the next day when she goes for work ... much to his complete bewilderment ... where is this girl coming from? What brought that on? Till last night, she was completely normal ... as normal as she usually is, anyway *rofl*

Shashi babu tries to trace the car number - he can't. Shyam wondering what he's up to. Amateur detective work, that's what ... and very sloppy at that.

La- Khushi ... La going on business trip with ASR, again planning by Khushi to get La and ASR closer together. For once, La is worried, all their plans backfire ... but Khushi is optimistic. La mentions marriage, Khushi's face falls ...
La leaves for spa, Khushi goes to make pakodas. Khushi calls a hotel in Nainital ... this is going to backfire big time! But do we have a trip coming up? Or is this all about La's exit? La's exit this time has to be between La and ASR alone, without Khushi being involved, for it to be permanent - am surprised La hasn't seen that ASR's attention is always on Khushi - he has barely looked at La since she got back.

Last one minute was all about ASR blacking out ... he took more time than I've seen anyone take to faint *rofl*

And Shashi finally finds some concrete evidence, DOB conflicting in Shyam's driving license and patri. Question is, what is he going to do about it? Simple, Shashi babu, you're the man of the house, and the only one with any brains, tell your dolt of a sister you don't want a single guy staying in the house with your two young girls, she should send Shyam off, or you'll take the girls back to Lucknow.

5/10 - Epi 90 ... Cute!!! and yet another hit and miss ...

5th October

All about Khushi/Arnav and the brats ... cute!!! Special appearance - Om Prakash! *rofl*
And yet another hit and miss between Shyam and Shashi babu ...

Two tracks going on side by side ... Arnav Khushi's changing relationship and the softening of the Rakshas  ...
and the unveiling of Shyam. Somehow I don't think Shyam will be unveiled by Shashi babu ... Shashi might come to know the truth but have a stroke or heart attack or some such thing, rendering him incapable of speech or unconscious ... the main exposure will be by Khushi/Arnav ... either/or ... am almost sure.

*edit*
The Ice Age ends and the thaw sets in *rofl*
I liked the episode a lot today ... I think my liking is inversely proportionate to Khushi's silliness, and today her antics were not silly, they were in tune with the responsibility given to her, to keep the kids out of Arnav's way, and not even let him know they were there ... really, Anjali, do you know your brother AT ALL???!!! So Khushi tried her best all through, with no help from La and Mami ... strange, you invite kids for kanjak puja and you let them run amok in your house, and go off on your various errands or to sleep! Oh well, all for the Arnav thaw ... it's a good cause!

And I loved the way Khushi handled the kids ... firmly yet sweetly - she won my approval straight off when she didn't give them the thali of laddoos, but kept it firmly in her hands. *rofl* at La's indignation that Khushi is 'didi' and La is 'aunty'!

So Mami, Anjali, Nani and La all abandon Khushi to look after nine lively kids on her own ... Mami the bhoot ... of course some of them land up in Arnav's room and destroy the model, and paint on his picture ... I actually winced when that model toppled over *rofl*

Again, liked the way a harassed Khushi comes hunting, *rofl* at the kid who asks her "is this your husband's room?" striking her momentarily speechless ... she shepherds them out very firmly, takes a last look to see for any obvious destruction, misses it, but warns the kids not to go back into that room.

Then Khushi plays chupan chupai ... first wrong number ... Om Prakash - omg, that guy's expressions cracked me up! Reminded me of Bashful in Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs - Never mind, Khushi ji ... I don't mind your catching me!
Second wrong number ... or right number *rofl* Arnav LG ... wondering as usual WT* ... that is becoming his permanent expression these days with all the Khushi madness in his life!
"Phir se zarurat se zyada lambe" ... she feels his face ... nope, Khushi, stubble definitely means wrong number again and she snatches her hand back ... and slowly opens her blindfold one eye at a time, and her heartbeat starts thumping again, belatedly this time ... so Khushi is a little lost ... awww ...loved the bg music here ...
And Arnav asks her exasperatedly, what exactly were you doing? And the anger is definitely a thing of the past ... the Ice Age is gone, and the thaw has set in ... slowly *rofl*

Poor Khushi still lost for a bit, then belatedly remembers her brief, and tries to hide the kids as best as she can ... *rofl* Khushi, nine active kids are UNhideable for any length of time!
Gosh, the scene was hilarious ... his incredulity ... what were you doing? ... were you actually playing??? With whom?
Om Prakash takes the fall again ... his turn to wonder WT* ...
Arnav gives up ... you are ajeeb!!! *rofl* that's putting it very mildly, Arnav!

Khushi heaves a sigh of relief, and warns the kids to stay out of his way, because he's a rakshas and eats kids! Then discovers three kids are missing again ... she needs help! But she sees OP going to give Arnav tea and the kids are in full view ... so she dashes ... another Arnav-Khushi face-off, Arnav wondering yet again what is wrong with her ... OP yet again a bewildered accomplice ... nope, no one came here ... OPji, if Khushi could get Arnav to take the rap for the missing Tulsi, what field radish are you? You don't have a chance!
And I cracked up at the last bit when he opens the shut door, takes his tea from Khushi's hand, and shuts the door again! As though to say ... meri maa, chai de do, baaki carry on with your paagalpanthi! 
Somehow reminded me of SRK-Kajol in K3G! As though Arnav has accepted Khushi is in his life, she is what she is, and he just has to live with it!

Again three kids missing ... Khushi calls Anjali and begs her to come back because Arnav is back ... he's coming back earlier and earlier from office these days, I find! Arnav yells ... Khushi goes running, she sees his pic with the moustache, and I don't blame her for sniggering, I did exactly the same thing *rofl* Then Arnav blows up about the model, he asks her if she broke it, she says she didn't ... and wonder of wonders, I think he actually believes her ... first wonder was that he even asked her whether she was the culprit! Angry Arnav is back though ... and Khushi is scared and worried, but not terrified ...she's more worried saving about the kids.
And finally the kids emerge and with them Nani, and the truth ... Arnav can't say anything more, and walks off ...
Khushi sees the broken model and is very upset ... she asks the kids immediately and they confess ... Nani questions her and she assures Nani the kids will atone for their mistake ... Nani trusts that Khushi will rectify matters. Love the way Nani trusts Khushi absolutely!

Interspersed with all these, were the scenes of Shyam taking Khushi's parents to the temple, making sure his and Khushi's horoscopes would match, and a hit and miss encounter with Anjali, Shashi sees Anjali behaving familiarly with Shyam, he gets Anjali's car number. Ok, this is leading slowly to Shyam's revelation, but am betting Shashi babu will be incapacitated somehow by Shyam before he can reveal anything. Shyam is turning uglier and uglier.
And the thaw between Arnav and Khushi is getting warmer and warmer ... waiting for the precap scene ... is it really concern for Khushi, or is Arnav actually going to play a practical joke on her?

I love the way the relationship is building between Arnav and Khushi ... the initial attraction is already well in place, but now they are getting to know each other as individuals, and Arnav is slowly and surely loosening up as he sees the genuineness, the sweetness and the innocence that define Khushi. And the child in her ... will that bring back the lost child in him? He lost his childhood far too quickly, is that what is going to be Khushi's biggest gift to him?

And hats off to Sanaya and Barun ...for their expressions ... and for holding them during those scenes!! I really want an SBS on how they canned these shots ... I want to know how much they laughed between takes! Oh, honorable mention to Om Prakash today as well!

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4/10 - Epi 89 ... Bipolar CV's

4th Oct

Wish they would make up their minds whether this is an intense love story or a comedy!
Anyway, the episode per se was enjoyable ... might as well enjoy while waiting for the seriousness to set in. And hope that the OTT comedy gets toned down at some point.

Episode starts with Nani losing it over the lost Tulsi ... I thought Tulsi was kept in the aangan and never inside the house?! Oh well ... nani delighted to see Khushi, La's training to resume! Arnav asks irately what the matter is - this time he doesn't blame Khushi!
Khushi loses track of everyone in trying to decipher her heart beat ... La drags her back to reality ... help, Chamkili!

Shyam setting scene for getting himself married to Khushi - seems to be the only way he can get her out of RM. Sindoor on her photo ... yuckkk ... the cv's had better not show a Shyam-Khushi marriage, they just dare not!!!!

Back to RM ... Khushi happily blames Arnav for putting the tulsi outside near his other plants, spelling it out that he should take the blame in place of Lavanya. Liked Khushi's exasperated look, when she spells it out ... you made the mistake, and La is being blamed ... like, can you get with it please and save your bimbo girlfriend? And winks at him desperately again and again, till he yells STOP out of sheer exasperation ... like, yes, okay!!! I get it,  I'll take the rap this time! *rofl* did she leave him any choice?
And I liked their exchanged looks as he leaves, then turns back, as though saying ... you'd better stop doing this, every time you manage to get me to do what you want ... this won't last ... and you'll get your just desserts when my patience runs out ... and her worried look, a hint of apology in it ...
La thanks Khushi ... now Khushi has to deal with ASR also for her, not just with Nani.

Gupta house ... Buaji convincing Garima ... Shashi babu, you'd better hold out ... or Khushi, you'd better say a firm NO. My last hope.

Rest of the episode was about Khushi's heartbeats and testing them ... first it was hiccups, now heartbeats ... Khushi confused, Arnav totally caught up in her confusion, all his attention on her ... what happened now?

Payal upset again about her wedding talks ... I think these are going to be filler scenes till the Diwali celebrations on SP are over ... Daljeet, and hopefully Barun Sanaya are taking part, so they need some non-Arshi scenes.
Khushi testing heartbeats again, Arnav wondering what the hell is wrong with this girl, does she think she's invisible, and what on earth is she even doing? But he still doesn't yell ... and Khushi ascribes her heartbeats to acidity and fasting ... they increase when she comes close or goes far, so no relation to ASR, thank god!

Mellow night scene ... ASR the workoholic (arey, kaam yaad aa gaya?), the other three in romantic mood, ASR non-romantic ... and again, Shyam reminds him of Khushi ...

Cute Khushi, castigating herself about her behaviour in front of Arnav, why did she talk so much to him, what would he be thinking of her ... and why is she feeling ajeeb? Acidity again ...

Anjali, Nani, La ... getting ready for Kanjak puja. More rope to hang La with ... Anjali leaves for YAP (yet another puja) and asks Khushi to take care, and not let the girls into Arnav's room.
So of course they will ... ;-)
And Khushi wants to leave before Arnav returns from office. So of course she won't. ;)

Precap - Slimeball Shyam will slime out again ...

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3/10 - Epi 88 ... Why does it feel so wrong?

3rd Oct

I thought I was doing what was right, making amends for my mistake ... then why does it feel so wrong?


I did what she wanted, I got La back because she wanted that ... then why is she still unhappy? What am I doing wrong now?

*edit*
The start of something new? Khushi still upset, vowing to try yet again, after all, it's all her fault that Arnav and La broke up, so she has to make amends for her mistake, why should they pay for it? And yes, Arnav's words about people moving on and never staying together for life, do make her feel that he is feeling as upset about the breakup as La is ...
But where to get the money for her next plan? Her bangle ... without any hesitation. Khushi, in the balance sheet, Arnav for all his wealth is very much in your debt ... phone, the mountain of mithai for the anniversary party and now your bangle ... hope he realises it sometime and gets round to paying you back!

Liked the small Arnav- Akash scene, Arnav still visibly disturbed after Khushi leaves, Akash has to pull him back to reality gently.
Shashi babu fianlly manages to call Rani Sahiba ... but Shyam babua is smarter ... has a false 'Rani Sahiba' set up already. He's not going to let anyone interfere with his plans ... ugly side of Shyam emerging more and more.
Arnav comes back to his office ... to see it full of plants, with a love note from "La". And all he can think of is Khushi, how she tried to convince him to get Lavanya back, asked him if he ever loved La, and then her tears ... her tears ... WHY can he not see her crying?! Why do her tears trouble him so much?! And he bangs the table in frustration ... his family, even Di's pleas, he could withstand ... but for Khushi's tears, he will do something he never wanted to do ...
Does he know the note is from Khushi and not Lavanya? I am pretty sure he does ... it's written in Hindi, for one thing, and it's Khushi who has been making all the efforts to get La back into his life ... Khushi took the blame for the bride scene, completely absolving La, he knew Khushi had written the first letter, am very sure he knows she's written this one as well.

Back at RM ... Nani wondering if everyone is trying to get La back.

Khushi back with La, trying to stop her from going ... saying she is sure Arnav will come. And he does.
Looking only at Khushi, as though asking her, now are you happy?
And she is ... her face breaks into a radiant smile, and his eyes soften seeing that smile ... yes, you're happy now.
La runs into his arms, he stands like a statue as she wraps her arms around him, his face expressionless again ... then slowly, he lifts one arm, then the other to return La's hug ... awkwardly ... as though still wondering why the hell he's even doing this.
And as he moves, Khushi's radiant smile fades slowly, she watches as though something is hurting suddenly, some unfamiliar pain is piercing through her, finding its way out through a single tear that escapes one eye ... she gives a start and lifts a finger to the tear,and looks at it as though questioning its presence ... is she crying? Why is she crying? Why should she cry?This was what she wanted ... wasn't it?
And she looks up back at him, her pain on her face, he looks at her, all his attention on her, none at all on the girl in his arms ... his gaze questioning her, are you happy now ... and sees her face ... and his own changes ... incredulous ... is she crying?! Why is she crying? This was what she wanted, isn't it? Why is she unhappy? What did he do wrong now?
The same questions ... do either of them have an answer yet?

She doesn't have an answer ... she just leaves quietly ... quickly ...
And he stares as she leaves ... Why? Why is she crying again? And why is it hurting him yet again?

The expressions on Barun and Sanaya's faces ... not a single dialogue ... all the talking through the eyes ... and the bg music, slow, heavy beats and the sad Rabba ve ...
Will this be the scene of the week?

The rest of the episode intensified the feeling of isolation, of aloneness that each felt ... lost in their own thoughts ... if the apology was a milestone, this was surely another one ...

Arnav brings La home ... as he enters, his expressions were those of a man doing something completely against his will, against his better judgement, hsi face only softened slightly when he saw his Di's happiness ... but not enough to join in with the family puja ... he wanted to get away, needed to be alone ... he had to think, to remember, to wonder, to worry ... why was she crying again?!

And Khushi equally lost during her own family puja ... why is she not happy? This was what she wanted, wasn't it? She did everything to bring it about, La was so happy, La and Arnav were together again, but then why ... her half sentences, as disjointed as her thoughts ...

Next day ... Arnav hasn't agreed to marriage yet, thank god! La getting impatient, though! Nani decides to give some more rope to hang herself with ... Anjali promises she will bring Khushi back to help her.

Khushi totally lost in her thoughts ... why is she feeling so bad? Why is she always thinking about Arnav? And Slimeball Shyam gives her the answer ... he thinks she's talking about him! Urrgghhh ... he's getting more and more obsessed!

And La manages to hang herself yet again ... but of course.

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30/9 - Epi 87 ... Reaching out?

30th Sept

Lots of nuances in the last Arhi scene ... need to watch in detail. But first, the rest of the episode. Hmm, episodes are going to be long this entire week..

The initial Arhi scene ... exactly as I predicted ... :-) Loved the look Arnav gave Khushi when she was trying to convince him that yes, La wrote that letter and she's truly heart-broken ... it was like, oh Khushi, who are you trying to fool? But no anger, just an amused tolerance ... he doesn't believe her, and she knows he doesn't believe her. And they both know why she's trying so hard. And when he tears her letter, her look is also resigned, as though, I knew it was lame, it wouldn't work, but I tried my best. He throws the pieces on her, with that very telling remark, give this reply to the one who wrote this letter ... again, they both know whom he means. She tries again, but he stops her with a look, don't go there. And she stops. And leaves with her usual one last backward glance. 
And there was no anger at all ... for the very first time.No, Arnav is not angry that La left ... he's not even angry at Khushi's meddling which made La leave ... La is over. She was actually over a long time ago.

Shyam-Khushi - went the way expected ... Shyam very happy at Khushi-less RM, buaji has stopped Khushi from ever coming here again ... lord, man, when has Khushi ever listened to anyone's orders? And the hit and miss - she surprised to see him there, he wheedles out of it and sends her off. Just wonder if Khushi did indeed tell her babuji that she was coming here, and whether she would wonder about that later.

Sweet La-Khushi scene - La leaving for London for good. She's upset but not heart-broken, and she knows that it's over between her and Arnav. Khushi does try, but she's not buying it.

Shyam consoling a distraught Anjali ... when is this girl not distraught?! Now she's worried that Arnav will never marry, and will be alone all his life, enclosed within that hard wall of his ... well, there she does have a point. And Arnav, more than anyone, needs someone of his own, to love him and be with him always. And Anjali knows that he doesn't share his feelings with anyone. But she doesn't know that he has started doing that now ... slowly ... very slowly ...
Mami-La ... Mami trying to persuade La to return ... for her own reasons, of course ... but still, she's trying.

Shyam-Anjali-Mami do marriage drama ... Arnav sees through it ... and tries to tell them that it's truly over between him and La. And he doesn't want to talk about marriage.
Mami adds her two-bit ... call La back. And Arnav is just not interested.
Anjali adds her bit again ... La did everything for you, changed herself ... and yet you didn't stop her even once. And realisation on Arnav's face ... no, he didn't stop La ... he didn't even want to stop La from leaving.
And the last bit ... I won't go to say sorry to anyone ... anyone except Khushi. Have you forgotten, Arnav?

Khushi again at RM ... again hit and miss with Shyam ... off she goes.
Khushi's house - Buaji is getting tiresome with her blind worship of Shyam. Shashi babu finally manages to get Rani Sahiba's number. Or does he? Shashi babu needs to spruce up his sleuthing skills ... a lot!

Khushi interrupts important meeting ... uh oh, not a good idea, Khushi! Although if Arnav was as madly in love with la as you thought, then he did need to get news of her leaving town asap ... but really, this is not done! And he was surprisingly calm about it too. Thanks heavens for small mercies ... unlike other shows, she didn't start off shouting in the meeting room itself, and she looked equally horrified at what she had done.

Then the talk ... he says again and again, it's over, we're done, finished, I don't care what she does ... and she asks, did you ever love her at all? How can love finish so fast? And she's right, of course ... he never did love La ... but how dare she tell him that? And no, he doesn't care that La left, because it just proves to him his own point ... that love doesn't last. She tries again ... LA was crying, does it make no difference to you? Have you no heart?

And the part which I'm trying to interpret ... he says, no, I'm heartless. That's what you want to say, right? At least being heartless is better than being two-faced. At least I don't tell myself, lies, I don't put on a show of telling the truth ...
What is he talking about? The strange tug between them that they both feel? That he doesn't want to feel, and she is trying to tell herself doesn't exist? Is that why she's pushing La at him so fiercely? Her own guilt at this tug? He doesn't want it, she knows ...
And she does know that he's talking about them ... her words ... aap kahan se kahan baat ko le aaye? ... why have you brought us in between this? This is about you and La ...
His words - face the truth ... yes, it is about us ... and there is going to be no us ... so get out!

La was fine as long as it was an unemotional, convenient relationship, but when it threatened to get more demanding from her end, he didn't want it ... and he doesn't want to go anywhere near Khushi, because it's threatening to get out of control from his end, and he doesn't want that at all. Not at any cost.

Another interpretation ... he may appear heartless at not calling La back, at calling it quits and declaring the relationship over so abruptly, but he’s facing facts. He knows it’s over. And so does she, she knows that La is not the girl for him if he could put her out of his life so easily ... but she’s trying to get La back because of her own guilt at her role in their breakup. To absolve her guilt, not because she thinks he and La truly love each other. And again, this would explain her words ... why are you dragging me into this, this was supposed to be about you and Lavanya ... not about my motivation, which again he’s being harshly judgemental about. Though maybe with more truth this time ... yes, she is going the extra mile because she feels guilty, but she’s genuinely upset for La as well, and till this last meeting with ASR, she doesn’t really know the depth of his feelings for Lavanya. Or lack of depth.

And the last look ... hers says ... don't do this to yourself, don't push me away, I can't see you alone because I care ...
and his look ... I know I hurt you again, but it's better this way, I have to push you away ... because I care ... I don't want to, but I care.

But oh god ... precap ... what is she up to now? And Shashi calling Rani Sahiba?

What I felt about the Arnav Khushi scene ... although everyone in his family tried, it ws all about 'get La back, because we don't want you to be alone.' Which is justified ... yes, Arnav doesn't believe in love, marriage, but life is long, and later when loneliness sets in, more than romantic love, it's companionship, having someone of your own by your side that matters. But have they tried to really probe his feelings? No. Only Khushi does ... how can you let La go so easily, without looking back ... did you ever love her at all? Because love can't end in a day ... and yes, she's right, he knows that he never loved La, it was a convenient relationship, and when it became inconvenient he had no problem in dropping her ... neither did La, fortunately, but that's another story. But have either of them consciously realised what is happening between them? Why she keeps meddling in his life, and why he keeps telling her to get out ... yet misses her like crazy when she does?

I would really like Khushi to stay away from him for a bit ... and see him missing her again, but with that precap, I doubt it will happen. 

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