Sajan - at a crossroads

28th April - random thoughts on Sajan Neil track

Gunjan - shy, quiet, timid, yet an achiever, an idealist yet a realist, dreamed dreams of achieving something in life, then her dreams changed to those of love, marriage and a happily-ever-after. But she didn't give up her other dreams, she still remained the studious quiet girl she had always been, yet developed confidence in herself and her love.

Mainly due to Samrat. Her opposite, flamboyant, the eternal optimist, a dreamer, with no major goals in life, except to enjoy life, have fun, live for the moment and be there for his friends. His only dream is Gunjan, his only reality is Gunjan ... if she is there, he doesn't need or want anything else, his life is complete. She fills the emptiness in him, her loving, caring tenderness makes up for the deep lacunae left by a lonely childhood, absent parents and a beloved sibling torn from him by circumstances, not once but twice. He never suffered from lack of anything material in his life, but everything he had never made up for that one huge missing ingredient - love. And so he's content today - that lack has been made up, that missing ingredient is firmly in place and will always be there for him. Life is complete.

And then - enter Neil. Neil is older, self-assured, mature, confident. He knows what he wants and reaches out for it, strives to turn his dreams into lasting reality. He came in search of Gunjan. He found her. He manipulated her to audition. Being hard-headed, if he hadn't found her good enough for the role, he wouldn't have taken her - after yesterday's episode, I think that is certain. But he would have found another way to keep her in his life. Having found her, he is not in the mood to let her go again.

Is Gunjan his muse? his inspiration? or his love? Don't know yet. But Neil is trouble for the Sajan love story for sure. His mere presence in Gunjan's life is enough to bring Samrat's insecurities back to the forefront, to raise fears and doubts as to Gunjan's presence in his life, and whether it is as constant as Samrat thought it would be. The fear of Gunjan slipping away from him in hospital made Samrat swear that he would marry Gunjan if that was what she wanted. But that was a promise made out of fear - if Gunjan went, he could never get her back, and he was helpless, he could do nothing about it. Now, he sees her slipping away from him
to another man, a man able to give her everything that he can offer her and more, and he feels that helplessness again. But this time, he might not lose her to death, but to his own inability to give her what she wanted - a name to their relationship, a committment to stand by her always, the right to call her his in front of the world. This time, it's his weakness, his phobia that could cost him his life - for Gunjan is his life.

And the only reason Gunjan might choose Neil over him, or be forced to, is that committment that he is still hesitating about, Neil might be ready to give her. If Samrat wants his love with him forever, this last bridge has to be crossed. For Neil is as rich, as well settled, as able to look after Gunjan as Samrat is. The only difference between him and Neil is that Gunjan loves Samrat as madly as Samrat loves her.

True, as Mayank said, love is a lot, but it is not everything. But as Samrat can testify, without love, everything else is nothing. And that's why, Gunjan will never choose Neil. If the choice is left to her.

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Sajan after press conference