29/9 - Epi 86 ... Moving in, Moving out - cutiepie Khushi

29th Sept

When I said yesterday that the episode seemed to indicate La moving out of RM soon, never realised it would be so soon! And yes, she had to move out and her relationship with Arnav end, before Shyam exposure started. And that happened as well ... or at least, the next step. So things are on the move here!

Liked the way the La end was done ... as I wanted, La saw the writing on the wall, and ended it herself with what remained of her dignity - the showdown between her and Arnav was very dignified from her end. Including the part about not blaming Khushi. I think later, La will be responsible for Khushi's first makeover, especially if there is no marriage and Khushi starts working with a rival company.

Also saw a lot of changes in Arnav's attitude towards Khushi - no yelling at all for once, that was the first and biggest change. And his words about money were forced, out of habit, as though he's convincing himself, not her. Especially the last conversation, no anger at all at his end ... is he secretly relieved that because of Khushi, his one major problem has been sorted out? Now all that remains is to sort out his feelings for Khushi. And no, he's not in love yet ... he's strongly attracted, has been fighting it all the way, and now the fight has been mellowed because of the knowledge of her past, so he can't really yell at her any more. Every time she does something silly, he sees the child in her now, not a conniving woman.

Another thing about the showdown ... Arnav was shouting at La as usual, completely out of control, but after he saw Khushi, his anger actually came under control ... his words to her, though harsh, were not unduly so, and were justified, and were spoken by a man making a huge effort to control his anger. And when he turned to La again, his first words were again controlled ... so MAJOR changes in Arnav already! His fury gets out of control only when La asks him for something he is absolutely not ready to give her ... has never been ... and his feelings have just crystallised even more. La's changing for his family, winning over his family, making efforts for him ... nothing has softened him at all ... and he knows it.
Really liked one part ... La asks Arnav ... why are you scared of marriage? He's offended - scared? and ASR? She goes on - ok, if you're not scared, and it doesn't make a difference to you, but it does make a difference to me, then why can't we get married? And he just stops there - his eyes fall - he has NO answer to her question ... or maybe that's when realisation hits ... it's not marriage that doesn't make a difference to him, it's Lavanya. She doesn't make a difference to him, she doesn't mean anything to him ... his nani was getting on his nerves, La was just a means of getting Nani off his back, choosing purposely a girl who was sure to NOT win Nani's approval ... but that move has backfired completely. And when La asks him straight out, do you even love me at all, do you care about me, finally the truth comes out - no, I don't care about you!
And although he tries to rectify it by saying why would I have gone against everyone in my house, my Di, if I hadn't cared ... La has had enough. So what does she want, he asks her, and she tells him what she doesn't want. Which includes living as his girlfriend for the rest of her life. She wants more than that.
He can't give her more. Can't ... or won't.
Then she's had enough. She's going.
And he doesn't even make one single attempt to stop her.

The waiting women downstairs ... La only communicates with Anjali, who was her well-wisher but only for her brother, and Khushi, who became her well-wisher for herself, who opened La's eyes to what exactly she was letting herself in for longterm ... and leaves.
Arnav comes down ... his ex-girlfriend is less on his mind than Khushi ... La is leaving, now send Khushi away, and out of my life!
Arnav, when was Khushi even in your life? *rofl* your man ka chor showing again ... if La leaves, Khushi will leave automatically, itni bhi kya pareshani?!

Leaving Anjali distraught (as usual) at the exit of her brother's love (not to worry, Anjali, he's already recovered), poor Khushi genuinely upset at the result of her work (again, don't worry, Khushi, Arnav was looking for an excuse, you gave him one, he won't be angry with you for long, once he realises he's well out of the La mess), Mami worried about Akash's sanyas, and Nani frankly delighted!

Khushi worried about La, her new best friend, and decides she will try to undo the mess she made ... or thinks she made ...
Next set of festivals start ... Shyam very happy that Khushi will not be coming to RM any more.

Khushi apologises to La, La is not interested ... she did realise that ASR didn't make a single attempt to stop her, so she's seen the writing on the wall. And her heart is not broken, her self-respect is more important. And she doesn't blame Khushi at all - after all, it was Khushi who showed her how brittle her relationship was. So La off to spa.
But Khushi still upset and penitent ... decides to try on La's behalf ...
Hilarious bit, damn sweet ... Khushi's attempts at talking to Arnav, her nervousness, her pep talk to herself, to her babuji's amusement, and the way she tells him to shush because she's trying to concentrate ... Khushi was too cute here! And when Arnav on the phone finally tells her he knows it's her ... did he know all along? does he have her number on caller ID, or was it the wind again? *rofl* ... and Khushi starts blabbering, taking all the blame on herself ... *rofl* Khushi he knows that already, the only thing you're responsible for is that this time you kickstarted La's brain into actually working and thinking for itself! So the decision to insist on marriage and to walk out if she doesn't get it, was La's own decision.
But Khushi of course still feels bad, and feels responsible, so she decides to try yet again ... a love letter, in her best Hinglish ... maybe Khushi should take English lessons from La in return for the sanskar lessons she gave her!
Buaji's reactions on reading the first love letter ... *rofl*
Payal's horror that Khushi is writing a love letter to ASR ... *rofl* again. And her first bit of sensible advice to Khushi ... leave Devi maiyya to work out her couples herself.

Anjali still moping ... Khushi arrives
Arnav Khushi ... she's quiet, so he goads her into talking ... but tone changed completely. Rightly he should be still angry at how she brainwashed his girlfriend, but he seems to have forgotten about that completely, her phone call is more on his mind. And his expression when she says La has sent the letter is hilarious ... like, oh really now?! Then she says, La has even said sorry, you don't have to say sorry ... let's just go bring her back ... and he has this look as though, you really think I'm going to fall for this? But there's a softness mixed there, at the fact that she knows his allergy to saying sorry, so she's saying all the sorry's herself ... for herself and for La ...
So all he does is tear up the letter into pieces and chuck it all over her ...
I will be surprised if he gets angry at her ... I don't think he will. More like he will tell her it's over between him and La and he will never marry La, or something of the sort, and she leaves even more upset and guilty about his breakup.

Because at the moment, Khushi has no romantic feelings for Arnav herself. How can she? As he has never failed to point out to her, her aukat, her haisiyat, even her language, her beliefs, her values and culture, all are so different ... she has never looked at him as a man ... only as an employer, and a khadoos tyrannical one at that, and now as the love interest of her new friend, whose breakup she is responsible for. And the irritating and inconvenient way he has of intruding in her thoughts at all times, is just that ... an inconvenience.The only change is that she's not as scared of him as she was earlier, that there is an unexpressed kinship, a bond, between two people who have shared their most intimate memories of the worst moments in their lives, have exposed their naked grief to each other ... that night will always be a bond between them now. And it now gives her the right? the responsibility? of getting what she thinks is his happiness back into his life.